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July 08 Why?Routine check in hosptial, something frustrating and annoying.
A 25 year old girl who is pregnant with twin babies, decided to do abortion because she cannot have the babies. and so many young ladies give up their babies because they cannot have them or it is a bad timing.
many other mothers, including me, who are eager to have a baby but cannot because of many many reasons.
Why?
i have to say i am wondering a lot recently, i dont't know which way should i choose, going abroad, having a baby, or something else...
All by ourselves!Tired, exhausted but contented, i finally returned home.
After almost two months preparations, we finally made it, maybe not so satisfactory, maybe a little bit frustrated, but at least we tried and we've decided to fight to the end, cause it is really my first try of doing things all by myself, haha, of course with the help of my father.
Thanks to my greatest father, he is a real wonder. From when i was only a baby to now i am a grown-up and a married woman, he is always accompanying me whenever and wherever i need any help.
For long time, i think i am living for others always, for my mother, for my father, and for my relatives, but in my life for the first time, i feel i am living for myself and i am making my life better and better.
Hope we can succeed finally~ May 21 说不难过都是骗人的...当自己需要掩盖所有的情绪，笑着去面对学生，同事，朋友，家人的时候，请一定要知道，说不难过是骗人的。
不知道自己什么时候变得那么坚强，虽然在没有人的时候还是会选择大声哭泣，在夜深的时候还是会选择默默流泪，在感触的时候还是会选择沉默流泪，但是也请相信，我很坚强。
只是，有的时候感慨这个世界太多的东西自己无法承受；只是，有的时候总是想未来还有多少等着我；只是，有的时候也会用羡慕的眼光去看别人，正如也许有很多人在羡慕我一样，但是请一定知道，我的难过无人可以说... May 11 Newly 败~sometimes, Taobao is bad because it has seduced me to buy more than i need and more than i will spend on the real shopping.
In taobao, i can find so many marvellous things that cannot be found around the city i live or even far from reaching.
So, that's why i have spent a lot more. and recently summer is coming, i've bought i lot for my husband and me and the prices includes the postge.
1. Abercrombie Fitch, Pamela, RMB 303
For men: RMB 298 and RMB 573
the classic AF which cannot be bought in China. I bought it from America, of course, with the help of a profesional buyer. and i also bought two for my husband. First, i chose a grey one, unfortunately, no M for me. i simply love the love white, however, there are so many white T-shirts of me. But i really not fancy of colored T-shirts, so that is, white one.
   2. Azona a02 RMB 224
Azona, the cats, a really lovely and colorful style. I choose the simpliest and the most low-key.
3. Naning 9, from Korea, cheaper but very comfortable one. For pants, RMB 128, for the shirt RMB 65
4. Cheerykoko, also from Korea, very sweet one, and very short skirt, hehe, RMB 241 and the picture is too big to be put there, i will just put the web, the pink one. http://item.taobao.com/auction/item_detail.jhtml?item_id=e82d20150ffc308667389f642252d5e2&x_id=0db1 5. Marc By Marc Jacobs ,slippers, from America, RMB 498,red and attractive
and etc. a lot of small products, like snacks, biscuits and etc. Although, i've spent so much money, i have to admit the pleasure of shopping on line is unspeakable!
May 06 How about some magic power?Wolverine , the newly-released movie, is hot recently. The magic power and their non-human abilities really astonish us.
After the movie, I asked my husband, which ability would he like to have if he was non-human. He said, the ability of predicting the future. Yeah, he wishes! Then he could win a great amount of money in lottery! Aha, life is tough. The hope of being a millionaire can only be achieved through good luck!
How about me?
i am really puzzled. This question is a question like "what would you do if you can live for only one day" or "what would you do if you can see or hear the world for one day". we can have so many plans and wants everyday, but when comes to the finally day, most of the people will become wondering...
So, i, i still don't know... April 20 Lie to Me" The average person lies three times for ten minutes of conversation! "
Astonished!
Does that mean we are living in a world full of lies?
Terrified!
Does that mean we cannot trust anybody around us?
Horrible!
The newly-released Fox series Lie to Me is a real shock to people.
Although most times from the begining of the series, i cannot follow the flow of the actors and actress in the video, i am really astonished by the fact that every common facial and body expression means something, either good or bad.
i really cannot imagine if one day i live like the main actor who is capable of distinguish every single lie behind every single movement in the face and of the body, my life will be definitely a disaster.
As the Chinese traditional Kongfu master 顺风耳, if he really has such talents, live for him will be short and a horrible experience. Because the beat of his heart could ruin his hearing and finally he will die.
So a man who is always suspect of everything around him will lead a tough and exhausted life.
Being ordinary is anyway not a bad thing. no-holiday holidayNo holiday recently. we are still waiting for the May holiday. but we are on holiday at weekends.
Friday, one of my husband best friend's wedding, we driving to hangzhou.
Midnight, Friday, with a lot of close friends, chatting, mens with dot--a game and women with dog. Speak of my cathy, i simply forget to upload some pictures. Unfortunately, it is not avaliable in this computer, so i will do on another computer. There was a moment of slience when all of us were exhausted with talks, one of us said how about hangzhou amusement park tomorrow! Allyes!
Saturday, 9:15pm, unfortunately, i am wearing a skirt and no pant is available for me in hangzhou, and i haven't had my camera with me. So all the photos are in our friends'. i will upload some later.
There are son many people in the amusement part. it will take more than half an hour to wait for one ride. And after waiting for a good 25 minutes, i finally got the chance of taking the merry-go-around, i was told i cannot because i cannot sit with my legs departed. i was exiled from there watching them playing and laughing. Alas!
Then, Pirate ship! It was my first time, i used to be so scared that i dare not to take that. But this time i wanna have a try which turned out to be a piece of cake.
later, swing which totally made me dizzy and weak~~ i wanna an icecream to comfort!~
...
After lunch, we really had no energy to go on with all the rides cause it was 30 degree in Hangzhou, we began to find someplace cooler, yeah, hangzhou Ocean park shall be the best chioce!~
Polar bear, polar wolf, Polar fox, dolphin, whale, penguin ..., we were coming!~
However, with the help of GPRS, we still lost ourselves many times before we finally got there.
COOL~~~~~~
Compared to the Ocean park in Hk, that one is also great and attractive with a different flavor. Finely-arranged halls and all various sea lives made us thrilled and totally forgot about our ages, we are heading for 40, oh, my buddha!~
Walking inside the park alongside the well-designed route, i really wanna be one of them in the water swimming freely and happily with them althought in fact i cannot swim,hehe, but i still felt reluctant to leave every place...
On our way home, i told my husband i would like to visit the park sooner, because i haven't finished enjoying and i wanna be there as long as possible.
Expecting my next no-holiday holiday~
April 15 Reopen of My Bloglifehi, my blog, long time no see! I've missed you very much but i always find myself some excuses not to have any contact with you! So many things happened recently.
First, and the very important thing is i am preparing for my angle to come. Today, one of my oldest classmate called me said that he dreamed of me the previous day. In his dream, i am a mother of a three-year-old child. It reminds of the fact that i am moving towards 30 which is thought to be a terrible fact although i am still very young both from my appearance and my mental body. But i cannot ignore the fact that i am eager to have my own baby from the bottom of my heart.
Second, i am preparing so hard for my French exam. I have devoted my spare time to reading and memorizing. A torture, to be frank. but i have to, or i will have to find another to live up to the requirements from our univeristy, like going abroad, which i have been dreaming for long but i've always been reluctant to do so. French is the most beautiful language in the world, but now i really cannot enjoy its beauty!
Third, during the past 6 or 8 months, i have become a really trendy person to visit taobao and be a taobao-er. and i have bought a lot, even things from Australia, the UK and the US. The web thrills me with so many fancy things and also is the reason i am still poor in money but rich in luxuries. Later on, i will put the photos of all thos i 败 from the net.
Fouth, Angie is pregnant, Mina is going abroad, but i am still here doing things i cannot find a reasonable ground. Life becomes less attractive for me. Hoping to change!~ October 09 预祝生日快乐!很久没有那么开心的逛街了,是不是开始慢慢想明白的时候,心情自然会很不错呢?? 还是因为这一个月实在是太忙,总是在东奔西跑的,突然向往了那种生活呢??
总之,今天很快乐.而且收到了两份妈妈给我的生日礼物,很开心,真的,虽然离生日还有一些日子,但是提前收到的心情真是不错!
预祝我生日快乐! October 02 National DayVacation again!!! After the long and bored summer holiday, i really feel exhausted in having another holiday. coz it means too leisure and boring life.
I don't know what to do, i don't like travelling and i am afraid of it coa i lost two of me teeth in May holiday. I have no friends to meet coz all my good friends are here beside me, except for one that is going to be married two days later and another who is suffering some kind of unbearable pain which i am also suffering now.
In today's replay of an amusement show in Hunan TV, one star sings a song"我有一匹小毛驴,我从来也不骑". The lyrics suddenly reminds me of you and your facial expressions and gestures when you were singing the song. And it moved me deeply coz i really longed for the past days.
Anyway, no one can help me out and no one can make me happy, only i myself!!!
So happy national day and nice wedding for my best friend! September 24 Mid-autumn Day! Tomorrow will be the Mid-autumn, and when i walk back home, i find the round and nice moon hanging in the sky. Yeah, life is full of regrets and sorrows, no one can be as happy and as complete as the moon today. But i am so lucky to have so many lovely students.
This morning, i received a mooncake a nice card from one class. Although, i don't like eating mooncakes. But this mooncake has already digested in my belly. and in the afternoon, when i enter the classroom, i received a bouquet of water lilies. It has been such a long time since i received flowers. The romantic purple flowers remind me of the past wonderful days.
I simply cannot properly express my feelings and my sensation when i face them. The only thing, i know is that i am so happy that i want to cry. all the grievance i've suffered from my family has been relieved and i gradually clam down. I now realize i am needed at least by my students.
Thanks all! and Happy Mid-autumn Day! The most cherished... Finally, i have found what i want to cherish for the rest of my life. Maybe they value nothing if you weigh it with money, but i can say no one has the same things, they are the only ones to me and they mean a lot. A key, a silver ring and a peice of note are all i want to cherish. The key is a key to the happinss, the ring is a ring to the promises, the note is a note about cares. And i think in my entire life, i will never ever own such kind of things again, coz so many things have been changed. All the past things have become memories and will not happen again. But i still miss the past happy days, i just cannot forget them, esp. with the sufferings i have now.
Maybe it will be just a fantasy, that i want to keep them to create another miracle, another wonder! Can I? September 08 手中的星星 “有一位会看手相的朋友说：‘在生命中，每个人都有一颗星星指引着他的方向，大部分人的星星在天上，他必须跟着星星走；而小部分的人，手掌上有一个星形的纹，那星星就握在他的掌中，由他自己去支配’但是我认为，即使我们手中没有那个星纹，也必须伸出毅力的手，把属于自己的那颗星星从天上摘下来，让自己决定自己的方向。”－－刘墉
After reading this, i kept searching in my hands to find out the star-like thing but failed. And i knew that i have to go along with my star in sky. That is why i have suffered so much in something in the past several months.So i decided to draw a star on my hand,although not so beautiful and not shining at all, but i suddeny feel content and confident coz i know i can also change many things with my hands.
And i would rather prefer to believe that my star has been deeply inside my hand and i have had the control of my life.
And I would rather prefer to believe the saying that every star stands for a pure soul that is rising for the purpose of lightening the people he or she loved and giving hopes to those he or she wanted to protect. And i would also want to be a shining star after i die and i am sure i will be the smiling one! September 04 那么爱你为什么这是最近一直在听的歌曲，听的时候总是让人觉得很悲伤，很心酸
离开你是傻是对是错 是看破是软弱 这结果是爱是恨或者是什么 如果是种解脱 怎么会还有眷恋在我心窝 那么爱你为什么 从女性观点让我明白地说 无论你是挖心掏肺呼天抢地或是热情如火 不止白白惹人讨厌让人嫌你罗嗦 恨不得没跟你认识过 你讲也讲不听听又听不懂 懂也不会做你做又做不好 你现在唱个这样的歌 你到底是想对我说什么 面对陌生疑惑肯定困难的生活 过去的日子仿佛偷偷地在笑我 笑我的落魄 也笑我的执着 也许吧他爱你比我多 离开你是傻是对是错 是看破是软弱 这结果是爱是恨或者是什么 如果是种解脱 怎么会还有眷恋在我心窝 那么爱你为什么 有太多男女就象你就象我 年纪轻轻开始拍拖 纯纯的爱或者天雷地火 眼看卿卿我我眼看情海生波 最终日子还得往下过 你可以说我冷漠或是怪我刻薄 我到想等着看你没我能不能活 你现在唱个这样的歌 你以为我们之间还会有什么 面对陌生疑惑肯定困难的生活 过去的日子仿佛偷偷地在笑我 笑我的落魄 也笑我的执着 也许吧他爱你比我多 离开你是傻是对是错 是看破是软弱 这结果是爱是恨或者是什么 如果是种解脱 怎么会还有眷恋在我心窝 那么爱你为什么 离开你是傻是对是错 是看破是软弱 这结果是爱是恨或者是什么 如果是种解脱 怎么会还有眷恋在我心窝 那么爱你为什么 September 03 车祸记 昨天是去杭州接Kathy的大日子，只是最近似乎真的很倒霉，出师不利，还出了不大不小的车祸。
首先在渡轮排队，被看门之人误会是插队，差点与之打起来，带着不愉快的开始，我们踏上了去杭州的路程。一路上，还算顺利，很快到了，并且接到了Kathy，回来的路上就出现了大事。
由于天气状况实在糟糕，加上天色有点晚了，所以在慢慢爬到宁波贝仑出口分界时，前面有辆越野车因为开错车道，突然停在了路边，导致后面包括我们的车共4辆一下子紧急刹车，造成追尾事故。
当时眼睛，包包全部都飞到了挡风玻璃上，所幸的是系了安全带，否则估计我也在车子外面了。事故发生之后，脑袋一片空白，只是觉得人，生命真的好脆弱，也许就那么一秒两秒就生死两隔，那么还有什么是不可以原谅，不可以好好解决的呢？？
不幸的是，我们的车居然是全责，让我更加觉得奇怪的是，交警同志居然说：“那人家停车是可以停的啊，谁让你撞上去的啊，撞上去就有责任了。”天哪，那他的意思是以后我学会了车我可以任意在我喜欢的地方急刹车，而不需要负一点点的责任了？？？好，那我有钱了，我就去开辆坦克，就突然急刹车在路中间。。。
幸运的是，脱保了一个月的车子，9月1号刚刚办好保险，所以起码没有金钱上的问题了。
开心，但有郁闷ing... September 01 羊羊羊，小肥羊！ 久负盛名的来自内蒙草原的小肥羊终于在家乡隆重开业了！抱着对草原的那份向往，也抱着对小肥羊的高度期待，我们一行四人兴冲冲来到了小肥羊。
不幸的是，由于本人愚蠢的坚信，认为现在这种时候会有多少人吃火锅的念头，没有提前订位子，只能排队等候。在排队之前，本人跑到前台要求等位牌，就等未得到答复。我老公奋起跑去找了前台，居然顺利的提前拿到了牌子，天哪，难道这个年代，真的是帅哥比较吃香嘛？？？
在久等20之久后，终于等到了位子，很可惜，居然对着rest room 的出口，真是走了。。。运了，呵呵。好不容易坐了下来，点完了菜，居然见不到筷子，左等右催，筷子千呼万唤之中来到了跟前。奇怪了，筷子，吸管，餐巾纸等包在一个小袋中，恩，很环保，再一看，收费1元！看来以后饭店的成本是越来越少了，连最基本的应该提供给客人的筷子，习惯都要收费了！！ 难道能不用？？ 真的用手吃嘛？？ 也许真的应该向我学生的朋友学习，出门吃饭自己带筷子，带杯子，设想，弄不好，某一天，连碗都要收费了！！！！
牢骚之后，直觉得肚子很饿，突然，啊的一声，断电了！！ 幸运的是，我们刚好坐在应急灯的下面，所以整个火锅店都点了蜡烛，只有我们有灯光；不幸的是，人家都已经吃了很久了，所以锅中多多少少有好吃的，而我们一个菜都没有上，厨房因为停电，没有办法操作。天哪，我们就坐在最亮的地方看着别人享用美好的烛光火锅，而我们只能自怨自艾，摸摸越来越扁平的肚子，流流口水，喝点饮料，艰难地呼吸着混浊的因为没有空调而越来越闷的空气。。。
不知道过了多久，电终于来了，菜终于上了，肚子终于饱了，吃小肥羊真是辛苦哦！ August 29 不用吃药的感觉真好！其实真的很难想象为什么有人会为了保养本来就很好的身体每天都去吃一点补品，定时定量，简直是一种折磨。所以虽然每天有人劝我吃这个吃那个，又有个做安利的姐姐总是让我补这个补那个，我还是坚决的将这些东西拒之门外，因为我不想成为都市的胶囊族，不吃饭没有关系，不运动没有关系，只要有胶囊就okay。这对人生简直是一种折磨！！！ 所以当今天医生告诉我，我不需要长期吃药了，不需要担心身体会有任何大的问题的，那种开心和轻松似乎很有没有体会了。所以，为了更加美好的生活，我决定：
1，新学期开始，找时间去运动，去健身房！
2，坚持去学车，将练习进行到底！
3，好好学习，天天向上！！ August 28 心灵环保丹麦艺术家Mads Hagstrom 最近在上海新天地搭建了一个为时一周的临时超市－－FLOWmarket。透明黑色是超市的主调，你可以任意选择你想要购买的商品，比如一罐“思考”。Flowmarket，结合了上海本土的消费文化，取了个颇小资和快餐式的名字，叫“心灵超市”。心灵超市卖的是一些白色的“心情寄语盒”：自省、新旧平衡、离开办公室。。。虽然没有机会去亲自去看看，但是依然感受的到短暂的安慰。来看看超市里面的特别产品吧！
Do better than smoking.....不抽烟更好
Leave your working desk....离开办公室
Save green....多一平方绿色
Communicates...多沟通
Pause...暂停
Tolerance...包容
Off liners... 不上网的人
How to let it go ... 如何放手
.....
这些名字让人感动，又让人觉得滑稽，难道人生真的变得如此空虚，什么都需要去购买嘛？？？？
不禁让我想起了前段时间购买的，找了很久的片子－《Life is Beautiful》。这部以二战为背景的片子，发生在意大利一对夫妻和孩子身上。父亲是犹太人，要被强行送入集中营，母亲没有犹太血统，却为了能和丈夫孩子呆在一起，毅然同行，结果依然被强行分开关押。父亲为了不让孩子幼小的心灵蒙上悲惨的阴影，一直骗儿子所有的残忍都只是游戏，如果他可以乖乖的表现出色，那么一定可以如愿以偿看到坦克。最终，孩子看到了坦克，但是爸爸妈妈却再也回不来了。这是大学视听课wendy给我们看的片子，虽然看了很多片子，但是唯独这一部总是让我介怀，让我感动，期待能够得到收藏，终于如愿，那是否也如同在心灵超市买到的一丝安慰一样呢？？？
建议大家，真的一定要找机会看看这不片子，会让你由衷的感动，而新的学期我也将找时间与我的学生们共同分享。
希望心灵能够保持那份永远的纯真！
ps：这个海星是某日与他出去吃牛排的时候特意割出来的，只希望天天会有这么一份心去创造美好的快乐！ 通知－－空间重新开放！！选个好日子，选择好心情，重新写我的空间。
首先，要谢谢去年和我说生日快乐的朋友，真的不好意思，现在才看到哦！
其次，汇报一下过去大半年的生活境况。生活浑浑噩噩，不知道到底做了什么，回首没什么可以值得很好的回忆的，所以现在决定要好好的生活，享受，并且定期上来向大家汇报哦！
最近，马上准备写第一篇，呵呵
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